Mondays, as a rule, are not my favorite day of the week.
Not sure as to WHY...maybe a culturally conditioned thing...but they aren't.
Today is a Monday...January 4, 2010, to be exact...which makes it the very first one of this New Year...yay.
Maybe I can work on this not-liking-Mondays thing as part of the SPIRIT of a New Year.
Or maybe I have other stuff to work on and THIS is far too trivial to deal with.
One of the characteristics of a NEW YEAR is the tendency to inspire reflection and introspection...mutually exclusive, but tend to be closely tied together.
Taking the time to look back over the previous year and see what we did...or didn't do.
To recall who we made a positive impact on...or who we simply hammered into the ground.
To think about what we might have done differently in order to get a better outcome in our lives...or what we might have done to begin with in order to better the life of another person besides ourselves.
It is the time to access our mistakes and applaud our successes.
Oh, wait...we aren't supposed to applaud our successes...that's vain, and we all know that vanity is a sin.
But, you know what?
It's OK...in fact, it is encouraged...for us to beat ourselves senseless over the mistakes we make.
It is also OK for us to find someone/something else to blame those errors on.
"The Devil made me do it"
"My friends said it was cool"
"Everyone else is doing it"
"But that's how my parents did it...do it...think about it...react to it...run from it"
What is so ugly about honestly looking back on the previous year, and saying:
"Well, I guess I really effed up THAT situation"
"Damn, I should have done THAT alot differently...will do so next time"
"Sometimes I can be so selfish...must make a concerted effort to NOT be that way"
"I'm so sorry. What can I do to make things right?"
Think about it!
Wouldn't it be so cool if COUNTRIES would do just that?
Or our political leaders?
Or our religious leaders?
Or our teachers, cops, judges and attorneys?
Or...even better...our PARENTS/GRANDPARENTS/SIBLINGS/other RELATIVES?
One of the most important things about our lives is that we rarely, if ever, get the chance for a "do over".
And quite sadly, most of us, when presented with that splendid opportunity, turn a blind eye to it...walk away from it...ignore it.
Because to accept the Gift of a Universe-given Do-Over means to admit we were WRONG...that somehow WE effed up...WE were responsible for something less-than-stellar...WE were to blame.
Because to accept that Gift means that WE...and only WE...are the ones who can, somehow, someway, make things right.
Because it means that WE must change...change some aspect of our Life/Lives.
And we all know that CHANGE is very scary, and, oftentimes, very hard.
And if we go to all that trouble to change, then aren't we really questioning the WILL of GOD?
Because we all KNOW that everything happens at God's bidding, including our very actions.
So far be it from us to question God.
Ah, yes...CHANGE can be very, very scary, indeed...
So, for now...